A Letter from Bix (April 14th)

April 14, 2011
Day 16 at SeaTac Federal Detention
By Bill Bichsel, S.J.

I will pursue my hope to do some writing while in lock-up. I feel the spirit present with me in lock-up and feel confirmed by the spirit that here is where I should be.

As I slowly shuffle around the common area, I thank God for being here and for the peace I experience. I am not anxious or overly concerned by anything, though I do feel some tugs to answer my letters and to
get my calling and visitor lists into the computer.

I have had generous help from different inmates such as: Reno, Bo, Hugo, Ronnie, etc. to help me with the computer. They have been most obliging. The kindness and welcoming by the inmates – especially the
Mexican brothers and some of the Black brothers has been great. They make sure that we have what is necessary. They give easily. Most of the guys on this 6b inmate unit have heard of our Bangor action and
are supportive. A very touching incident, that highlights our treatment by the inmates, happened on our second day here when there was a shake down. All the inmates had to file into the big, very cold, exercise room while the guards went through our cells looking for contraband. While I was standing there shivering one of the Mexican inmates came up and put his jacket around my shoulders. I was touched
by his compassion.

I’m very lucky to have Steve Kelly, S.J. as my cell mate. Ordinarily, he would go into the Special Housing Unit (the hole) upon entering into BOP custody because of his non-cooperation with BOP regulations and restrictions; however, out of consideration for me, he has elected to stay in the general population with its regulations in order to be a companion to me – as long as he can. He shares his humor, consideration, helping hand, and patience with an 82 yr. old that has things wrong with him from head to toe, moves slowly, tires easily, and takes a ½ ton of pills to prolong breath and life. Steve has been
great. We are somewhat the odd couple. Guess which one is neat and orderly.

I’m blessed by the peace and quiet spirit inside. I’m not concerned about trying to be more than I am with the other inmates. I’m trying to let them see – and not hide or disguise – my lack of knowledge of
so many things. I want to be as I have been formed by time and the community of people about me at different stages and positions in my life. Like I said: I’m lucky to be here.

I know I’m getting weaker – it takes all my strength and breath to make my bunk. I have to sit down a few times in the process. It takes all I have now to do one or two slow shuffles around the common area.
I don’t feel panicked or upset about my condition. I know I can keel over at any time; but I feel very much at peace with this condition and understand and accept it – thankfully – as part of my journey.

I don’t have a regular prayer time now – but pray and try to be alert, i.e. at rest in the presence of God. I ask God to lead me as God sees fit. There is no anxiousness or compulsiveness or resolve to preach or
hold prayer sessions or do any “religious actions” – just be and shuffle around. There are four TVs I avoid with their steady diet of sex and violence.

I am so thankful to feel at peace with my life. It’s a gift from God and I do feel God working in – with me. I could be wrong – but this is what I experience.

The action we did was beyond us – as the carrying out of other Plowshare actions have been. I do feel our prison stay is part of the same journey.

Editor’s Note: Click here to read Joe Power-Drutis’ letter that refers to this letter from Bix.


5 Responses

  1. Thank you so much for sharing the letter from Bix. Would that we could all find the peace that he has, no matter what our life circumstances. But the peace he feels is all the more amazing given his present living conditions. Bix is a true role model and hero. Thank you again.

  2. I love this!! Bix(uncle Bill), you personify light in every way possible. I read your words and my trivial hardships of day to day life slip away. I see beauty, grace, spirit. I thank you for this. I thank you for living as truly as you do and always have.

  3. I feel your presence and see you in my daily thoughts and prayers. I wish you were not locked up and now moved to Tennessee so far from your home and loved ones. I know you have a higher calling and your courage and resolve are an inspiration to all of us. Your world is more at peace than ours despite the incarceration. We love you and pray that you are safe and remain at peace with your predicament.

    Love ya”……Terry

  4. Hello Great Uncle Bill. You are very positive and accepting of the adjustments that are necessary to deal with the current situation. We are very proud of all your efforts. I have always enjoyed your smile and sense of humor. Ultimately your ability to make the best out of life for yourself and others.

    Much Love,

  5. The Steve and Maureen Keller family has always been blessed with you, by you and for having you on our side. Stay strong so that we may have much more of you and thank you for all your efforts.

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